They Have Been Better

Today is the last day to get in on the Anniversary Music Mix offer. See here to find out how to get yours, if you don’t you’re going to find yourself very sad when all the cool kids have theirs. You want to be cool don’t you?

Now, I need to be serious for a moment.

(Puts on serious face)

This morning I woke up I to something I hadn’t experienced in a long time, the feeling that something was wrong. You see, most mornings, even though I don’t want to get out of bed, I get up with the belief that everything is going to be OK and maybe things are going to be awesome. Not this morning though, maybe it was because I had been dreaming about the past but when woke up I felt terrible. As I showered, dressed and drove to work I relived years of mistakes in my head until I wanted to pick up the phone and call everyone I’ve ever done something wrong to just to say I’m sorry all over again.

Reliving the past is a sure sign that I’m feeling down.

In the way before time, I frequently used to write about feeling down. There were times when I was sick, there were long periods when I felt lost and there were the days when I just wanted to lock myself in the house. Those were good times weren’t they? Let’s take a walk down depressive memory lane?

My Favorite Depressing Blog Moments

1- Back in 2005 when my Gay Sleep Disorder was at its worst and just before I went into surgery I was a mess, as evidenced in posts like this one (added bonus of MySpace style photo). That was a memorable depressive incident.

2- Last spring and summer, dead broke and broken up with several times over…with the requisite MySpace style pics.

3- The general moodiness of 2005, although it lacks pictures.

Plus many, many more depressive hits!

Why mention this? Because, by making fun of my less than happy moments I feel like I own them rather than my bad days owning me. This morning, for the first time in ages, I feel less than terrific but unlike the times that came before it I can tell as it is happening that it is only temporary.

This concludes the serious portion of our blog day.

Remember, last day to get something for free.


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